I am so stressed. I have been sick, a cold, which I have unfortunately passed on to the little man. Nicholas has spent the last two nights coughing and not sleeping, which means I have not slept either. Mac is away and I am exhausted, but life doesn’t stop, Sarah Jane doesn't stop, Mac can’t stop, just because I am sick. Nicholas needs me constantly. I need sleep! I know it will pass. My cough has slowed. So a week from now, Nicholas will be over this. Sarah Jane will probably have it, but Nicholas and I will be better. I think Mac is happy not to be home right now.

I know this is horrible, but sometimes I wish it was me that was away. Just sometimes, you know?

Either that or I wish Mac was here so I could just kneel for Him at the end of the day. I think that would help me relax.

But I am a good mum and I will soldier on and it will get better. Any day now!

I found that misunderstandings kept happening between Mac and I. Not big deals, just little things that left us both feeling a little titchy with each other. As the titchiness set in the misunderstandings kept coming which meant the titch took up permanant residence and I didn't like it. I didn't like it at all. I hated feeling that grating edge between us.

So I decided to go back to the basics. Instead of just saying 'I love you' which still is a lovely thing to say, I started saying why I loved Him, what things about Him I loved. 'I love the way You smile.' 'You have the most gorgeous eyes.' 'I love being with You.' 'I love the way you smell.' Just little things. Not big deals. And I didn't make a big deal out of them. I said them with a kiss as He was leaving in the morning, with a smile as we sat down to dinner, with a caress on the cheek as I was walking past. And instead of saying 'You are late' when He didn't make it home on time, I said things like 'I like it when You come home.'

The difference it has made has been huge. There are less misunderstandings and instead of being titchy, we are very comfortable together. We can tease without anyone taking it seriously. We can question misunderstandings without anyone being on edge. And I don't think Mac realises this, but we are spending more time together, talking, touching, and kissing while we are watching TV. He touches me more often while I am cooking. We hold hands more. He looks at me with that look that is full of love. He smiles more often, especially at me.

I think it is easy to fall into a spiral of bad habits.

And sometimes it is just takes something simple to get us back out.